What Ifs

The beauty danced and smiled

Yet frozen inside

"What if he knew I am poor

And doesn't even have a gown of my own?

Let alone the glass slipper

Or the ashes that I have to clean?"

The sweetheart lowered her eyes shyly

Yet gripped inside

"What if he learned of my scaly legs

That I can't partake of seafood dine

Or that I don't know human manners

Because I am not even one?"

The alluring tilted her head innocently

Yet crushed inside

"What if he realized my fear for human

And for everything else under the sun

Which is why I am so pale

That I am no beauty, just a coward?"

The lovely blinked her eyes beautifully

Yet nauseated inside

"What if he found out about my depression

So crippling I can't force myself to work

Motivation and ambition means nothing to me

Caught in it too deep I resort to sleep?"

The enchanting giggles behind her book

Yet horrified inside

"What if he found out my low self-esteem

Thus my books and my loneliness

That I am a reject of the society

And I am absolutely nobody?"

The fairytale continues

And happily ever after is guaranteed

But states of mind are untold

Restlessness inside is unspoken

A thousand "I love you" is possible

But a million "What if" is definite

The true fairy tale is to live without the "What if"

Find the perfect setting

Find the perfect character

Slay the Monster of Doubt

Then live happily ever after

The end.

But who has such luck?

Who has such strength?

Life is not a 10-page storybook

So here we are with our "what if"

Looking for the closure and acceptance

Looking for the happily ever after

For every "What if" we need someone

Who smile and say "It's alright"

For every "But, really, what if" we need someone

Who holds our hand and say "It's ok"

For every "No, you don't understand. What if?" we need someone

Who look into our eyes and calmly say, "I am here."

That would be my fairy tale

That would be my happily ever after

Because doubt is a thousand-headed Hydra

You chopped off one and another one sprung

Till it renders you cripple

Till it eats you alive

Stay with me and have faith in me

And remind me to have faith in myself

Be the lighthouse of my stormy life

Be the anchor that tied me safe in your harbor

This is my fairytale

This is my happily ever after

Till then I will dance with the beauty

I will swim with the sweetheart

I will stay inside with the alluring

I will cuddle with the lovely

I will read with the enchanting

And together we'll say to each other, "But what if..?"