Tonight

I promise myself I will never walk in that dark place again

I promise that my heart will be locked

Safe and secure where it should be

I promise myself I will never love again

But I foolishly did

Head over heel

Heart over logic

Betting against the odd

And I lost.

The sun is shining but my mind is dark

The warmth of spring touch it not

It feels like an eternal storm inside

Wailing and crushing and full of misery

You will be fine, they say

This will pass, they say

You deserve better, they say

You are the storm, they say

Maybe I am, but not tonight

Tonight is drowning slowly like Artax

Heart plucked away like Prometheus

Crashing spectacularly like Icarus

The madness of Juliet upon dead Romeo

Tonight is unconsolable grief

The stricken fear for the future

Unkind voices that put me in place

Tiredness which envelopes

Give me tonight. Just this night.

Morning will come, supposedly

Rain will stop, supposedly

Snow will melt, supposedly

I will smile again, supposedly

But at the moment the night is neverending

No escape from the dark and the cold

Hands grasping for help in empty space

Lost. Lost. Lost.

Tonight. Just for tonight. 

Let me lay with our dead commitment

Let me weep on the corpse of our future

Let me wail for the lost of your love

Let me cry for the could have beens

Things will be better but not tonight

Tonight is the dark place I have to walked again

The cold. The pain. The lonesomeness.

Tonight. Let me be me tonight.